Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Greatest Treasure!

"The Lord has heard my supplication; the Lord receives my prayer." Psalm 6:9

"The sheep that are My own hear and are listening to My voice; and I know them, and they follow Me. And I give them eternal life, and they shall never lose it or perish throughout the ages. (To all eternity they shall never by any means be destroyed). And no one is able to snatch them out of My hand." 
John 10:27-28

"But without faith it is impossible to please and be satisfactory to Him. For whoever would come near to God must (necessarily) believe that God exists and that He is the Rewarder of those who earnestly and diligently seek Him (out)." Hebrews 11:6

"Be not afraid of them (their faces), for I am with you to deliver you, says the Lord." Jeremiah 1:8

Jesus, Forgive me for all the ways I continually fail You. Thank You that my greatest need is You. You alone are my greatest treasure. I pray that You would deliver me from the fear of what might happen. Help me to keep striving after what ought to be. I choose to believe You over what I see and how I feel. I choose You. Thank You that You have made us in Your image and we are not of those who shrink back. Thank You that we have received Your Spirit, that we may know the things freely given to us by God. Thank You that You tell us over and over again to ask! Help me each day to declare Your Word with a heart full of faith. 

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Barrett & Jen's Wedding Pictures!







Worthy To Be Praised!

"Heart Of Worship" (Matt Redman)

"King of endless worth
No one could express
How much You deserve
Though I am weak and poor
All I have Yours
Every single breath
I'll bring You more than a song
For a song in itself
It's not what You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about You
All about You, Jesus
I am sorry Lord for the thing I've made it
When it's all about You
It's all about You, Jesus

I'll bring You more than a song...
I'll bring You more than a song..."

"Cannot Say Enough" (Mercy Me)

"What can we say to describe just a glimpse of Your glory?
How can our words portray but a thread of Your majesty?
But still we praise our Savior in Spirit and in Truth...
For we cannot say enough about You!?"

I haven't posted in awhile, but He is worthy to be praised for so much! This weekend I took my PRAXIS exam, and I am so thankful that it is over! Thank you to all of you who sent me text messages or called. It meant so much. You have no idea! The Lord really gave me a peace that I am certain could only come from Him. I am choosing to believe that the Lord poured out His grace on me that day and answered all of our prayers! However, I won't know the results for four weeks. Whatever happens, He is good. I am so blessed to have the encouragement and support that I do. My parents came to Waco to pick me up and took me to Dallas for the test. I was so blessed to have them with me and help me through the big day. We had a lot going on this weekend. Not only did I take one of my comprehensives, but I was also in a wedding! It was challenging, but such a wonderful way to celebrate God's faithfulness to me and my precious friends who got married. My Dad was my date for the rehearsal dinner Friday night, and we had a lot of fun together! Chris had to work, but he drove in Saturday night for the wedding. We had a blast dancing, but even more so watching my Dad. He was hilarious! Anyway, it was great for the four of us to be together! The only problem was that we were missing Meredith! I can't wait for her to get back from Europe! So, back to my friends who got married! Jennifer has been one of my sweetest and closest friends since freshmen year of college. She and Barrett began dating the summer before our senior year, so I have had the privilege of knowing them together from the very beginning! They are a wonderful couple, who love the Lord and others so well. Their wedding will be one that I always remember. I felt that it captured so much of who they are and how much fun they like to have. I took quite a few pictures. They are all on facebook, but I have posted a few here as well. Right now, they are honeymooning in Hawaii! I am a little envious! But they have waited a long time for this, and I am genuinely happy for them! Well, as for me, I have to get back to studying! My last comprehensive is Friday morning! Pray! Pray! Pray!

"The reverent, worshipful fear of the Lord leads to life, and he who has it rests satisfied; he cannot be visited with (actual) evil." Proverbs 19:23

"He is my defense; I shall not be moved." Psalm 62:6

"Call upon me in the day of trouble: I will deliver you." 
Psalm 50:15

"He that cometh to me shall never hunger." John 6:35

"The Word of the Lord endureth forever." 1 Peter 1:25

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

I Need Bread!

"He that dwelleth in love dwelleth in God, and God in him." 
1 John 4:16

"God is with thee in all that thou doest." Genesis 21:22

"My grace is sufficient for thee." 2 Corinthians 12:9

"He that heareth My Word, and believeth on Him that sent Me, hath everlasting life." John 5:24

"He that doeth the will of God abideth forever." 1 John 2:17

"All things, whatsoever ye shall ask in prayer, believing, ye shall receive." Matthew 21:22

"Then shalt thou call, and the Lord shall answer." Isaiah 58:9

"The Lord shall give thee rest from thy sorrow." Isaiah 14:3

"I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me." Philippians 4:13

"He shall deliver thee from the snare of the fowler." Psalm 91: 3

"As truly as I live, all the earth shall be filled with the glory of the Lord." Numbers 14:21

Saturday, July 19, 2008

Always There!

John 15:13 says, "Greater love has no one than this, that He lay down His life for His friends." Truly, God has blessed me with the most incredible friends. They know who they are. Each one leaves me loving Jesus more and understanding more of His character through our friendship. I am beyond grateful and could write more than a few pages on each one and how they have personally blessed my life! However, I am going to write about the one I have known and loved the longest....Miss Savannah Duncan. I find so much joy in our friendship, and my life wouldn't be the same without her. We have been through so much together. Although she lives miles and miles away, I feel as if she is right by my side. The Lord uses her to speak truth and hope into my life. I know that she would do anything for me, and I would do anything for her. She is a beautiful woman of God, and I am overwhelmed by my Savior's love through her. He takes her actions and words of compassion and turns them into something that refreshes my soul. We have disappointed each other along the way, but we have learned that the only one who will never disappoint is Him. So, we rest in that and are able to love each other deeply from the heart! He has made our friendship so sweet and continues to make it sweeter. He is our ultimate friend, but we are blessed to walk with one another. No matter the distance between us, our love for Christ keeps us connected. Thank You Lord for Savannah. Thank You that we can be honest with one another, encourage and lift each other up, pray for one another, and help bear the burdens of this world together. Thank You that we can be Your hands and feet to each other and most importantly to a lost and dying world. Thank You for dying for us, so that we could have friendships like this and show ourselves friendly! Thank You that it is only through friendship with You that we can be this kind of friend to others. 

Friday, July 18, 2008

There Is None Like You!

"There is none like You. No one else can touch my heart like You do. I could search for all eternity long and find there is none like You. None like You. Not one like You. No, not a one. Your mercy flows like a river wide and healing comes in Your name. Helpless children are safe in Your arms. There is none like You. No one else can touch my heart like You do. I could search for all eternity long and find... There is none like You." 

"Jesus, my passion in life is to know You. May all other goals bow down to this journey of loving You more. Jesus, You've showered Your goodness on me, given Your gift so freely that there's one thing I'm longing for. Hear my hearts cry and my prayer for this life. Above all else, above all else, give me Yourself. Savior, the more that I see Your beauty, the more that I glimpse Your glory, my heart is captured by You. Jesus, You are my greatest treasure, nothing this world can offer could ever compare to You. So, hear my hearts cry and my prayer for this life. Above all else! Above all else! Above all else! Jesus, give me Yourself. More than anything! "

Lord Jesus,
Thank You that you do not create emotional distance because of our sin. Thank You that taking ownership of our sin allows the power of Your grace to abound! Thank You that confession leads to blessing. Thank You that a little is not enough! Thank You that Your intention is not to catch us and condemn us, but to love us, save us, and set us free! Thank You that You are slow to anger and abounding in love. Thank You that Your mercy is greater than Your judgement. Thank You that we can come to You just as we are.

"Bless (affectionately, gratefully praise) the Lord. O my soul; and all that is (deepest) within me, bless His holy name! Bless (affectionately, gratefully praise) the Lord, O my soul; and forget not (one of) all His benefits - Who forgives (every one of) all Your iniquities, Who heals (each one of) all Your diseases, Who redeems your life from the pit and corruption, Who beautifies, dignifies, and crowns you with loving-kindness and tender mercy..." (Psalm 103). 




My Daily Bread!

I have a box of Scripture that I pull from regularly. It's my daily bread. Jesus said that man shall not live on bread alone, but by every word of God. Here's what I have been living on lately...

"Come ye after Me, and I will make you to become fishers of men." Mark 1:17

"The Lord upholdeth all that fall." Psalm 145:14

"For the Lord giveth wisdom: out of His mouth cometh knowledge." Proverbs 2:6

"Come unto Me, all ye that labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest." Matthew 11:28

"The eyes of the Lord are over the righteous, and His ears are open unto their prayers." 1 Peter 3:12

"They that seek the Lord shall not want any good thing." 
Psalm 34: 10

"With God all things are possible." Mark 10:27

"The Lord shall preserve thy going out and thy coming in from this time forth." Psalm 121:8

"Those that wait upon the Lord, they shall inherit the earth." Psalm 37:9

"If any man hear My voice, and open the door, I will come in to Him, and will sup with Him, and He with me." Revelation 3:20

"Whatsoever we ask, we receive of Him, because we keep His commandments." 1 John 3:22

"He that overcometh shall inherit all things." Revelation 21:7

"I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee." Isaiah 41:10

"I, even I, am He that blotteth out thy transgressions." 
Isaiah 43:25

"Thou wilt show me the path of life." Psalm 16:11

"Commit thy way unto the Lord; trust also in Him; and He shall bring it to pass." Psalm 37:5

"Cast thy burden upon the Lord, and He shall sustain thee." Psalm 55:22

In Your Presence!

"You will show me the path of life; in Your presence is fullness of joy, at Your right hand there are pleasures forevermore." (Psalm 16:11)

You are my Supply
You're my Fountain of blessing 
To the end of the Earth
You are my Supply
And You wipe away my tears
You take away my fears
With the strength of Your love

Seasons have dried my soul
The sun is hard beating down
My temptation is to look at all that's gone
You are here
You are near

You are my Supply
You're my Fountain of blessing
To the end of the Earth
You are my Supply
You wipe away my tears
You take away my fears
With the strength of Your love

After all is said
After all has been done
I sit here until
My heart is Yours
You are here
You are near

You are my Supply
You're my Fountain of blessing
To the end of the Earth
You are my Supply
You wipe away my tears
You take away my fears
With the strength of Your love

"You Are My Supply" (James Mark Gulley)

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Lately!

"I am feeling the pressure, 
and I am pleading for grace.
I am aware of my failures and relying on faith.
I am tired and sometimes burdened, 
but He is my Rest.
I am in desperate need of my Savior to perform on my behalf. 
Undeserving of all that I receive, 
but still He gives more.
I am amazed at His patience with me, 
as He allows me to call Him Lord.
He answers when I call, 
and His promises are true.
By His stripes, I am healed.
By His Word, my mind renewed."

This is what has been on my heart as of lately. I just thought I would share it with you. Now, I am off to study! 

Sunday, July 13, 2008

Top Ten For Today!

Today, I am thankful...

1. That I can call on Jesus!

2. That God has given me a selfless and precious man who delights in serving me and others!

3. For rest!

4. For the opportunity to be in graduate school, and that it is almost over!

5. For the ability to study!

6. For support and encouragement from friends and family!

7. That His mercies are new every morning!

8. That my heart is still beating!

9. For a washer and dryer!

10. That I never have to go hungry!


This list may seem really random and pretty simple, but I believe we always have something to be thankful for! This is just what came to my mind first thing this morning! Remember, we are to enter His courts with thanksgiving! 

Saturday, July 12, 2008

Major Exams!

This morning my roommates and I decided on a theme verse for our remaining time in graduate school. Brittany came across it in her time with Jesus, and shared it with us. I looked it up in the Amplified Bible, and we made a poster! It is now hanging over our TV, in hopes to keep us on track! After we read this verse, we were saying, "Yes and Amen!" I just thought I would share it with you. I hope you are encouraged in whatever situation you are facing, and know that our God is able!

"I will cry to God Most High, Who performs on my behalf and rewards me [Who brings to pass His purposes for me and surely completes them]." Psalm 57:2

Friday, July 11, 2008

Studying Abroad!

Join me in praying for my sister, Meredith, as she is studying abroad during this second summer session.

1. Pray that the Lord would spread His protection over the entire group as they travel.

2. Pray that He would be glorified as they study and play!

3. Pray that new friendships would be made and old friendships would be strengthened.

4. Pray that the Lord would direct their steps as they walk unfamiliar territory.

5. Pray that Meredith would have opportunities to share her faith with those she comes in contact with and that she would experience Jesus like never before!


Tuesday, July 8, 2008

My Lips Will Glorify You!

"Because Your love is better than life, my lips will glorify You. I will praise You as long as I live, and in Your name I will lift up my hands." Psalm 63: 3-4 

Jesus,
You are worthy! Truly, Your love is better than life! Thank You for Your salvation. Thank You for Your forgiveness. Thank You for Your grace. You are good! I long for my lips and my life to praise You. You are my Lord. Apart from You, I have no good thing. My heart is glad and my tongue rejoices. My body rests secure. I know that You will never abandon me. I know that You always embrace me. You have made known to me the path of life. You continually fill me with joy in Your presence, with eternal pleasures at Your right hand. I call on You, for You will answer me. You are my Strength, my Rock, my Fortress, and my Deliverer. All of Your ways are loving and faithful. You are the Stronghold of my life. Test me, O Lord, and try me, examine my heart and mind; For Your love is ever before me, and I walk continually in Your truth. May integrity and uprightness protect me, because my hope is in You. One thing I ask of You, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in Your house all the days of my life, that I might gaze upon Your beauty, and seek You in Your temple. I will exalt You, O Lord. You turned my wailing into dancing; You removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy, that my heart my sing to You and not be silent. I will give You thanks forever!   

Lots Of Laughs!

Well, things have been pretty busy! On Monday night, Chris and I had dinner with our parents. It was the first time that the six of us have been able to sit down together. It was great to be with them, laughing for hours! We were at On The Border from 6:30 p.m. until 10:45 p.m. It definitely left us looking forward to the years to come! On Wednesday, my sister left Waco making her way to Great Britain! I cried, off and on, all day Tuesday and Wednesday. I already miss her so much! On Thursday, I began my second summer session. I still can't believe it! Today, I had a few meetings at the clinic in preparation for our new clients. Therapy begins Monday! Now, I am at home with my incredible roommates (Brittany and Laura)! It's going to be a study night, as every night will be until August 13th! Pray that we might have the grace and discipline needed to accomplish all that there is to do in the weeks ahead. Apart from Him, we can do nothing!

Us!

My Parents!

His Parents!

Friday, July 4, 2008

His Love Endures Forever!

I love how Jesus takes care of me through my friends. This week, Bailey came to see me! With my crazy schedule, we only had thirty minutes together! However, in a matter of thirty minutes, I was refreshed. Our time together is never quite enough, but I am grateful for whatever I can get.

The Lord also used Brittany and Laura to lift me up this week as well. They are precious friends. They always go the extra mile and bend over backwards to help me in whatever way they can. I am so blessed. I don't know what I would do without these girls in my life.

Tired!


Last Day Of Camp!

This is a picture of my fun room or part of it!


Best Friends, Roommates, and "The Three Little Pigs!"

  Have I mentioned that I love Dr.Ritter?

Two amazing supervisors!

   Me, Jill, Emory, and Jennifer!


Happy 4th of July everyone! I am so tired! I just turned in my last project for summer session one. I love the feeling I get when I finally finish something! One more summer session to go! Can you believe it? It's only 8:30 p.m., and I feel like it's midnight! This week has been nuts. Thank You Jesus for sustaining me and giving me the strength to keep going. Apart from You, I can do nothing. Today, I had lunch with the McMullen's to celebrate the fourth. It was great to be with them, even though Chris had to work. I love their family. My Mom and Dad are at Lake Claiborne right now, and I am terribly jealous. I would give anything to be with them. Thankfully, they are coming to visit me soon. I am ready for the four of us to be together again. It's been too long. I just got home, and I have a lot to do. I am thinking about studying or going to bed. I am leaning towards the latter. I feel empty and a little weak. I've got to get with Jesus tonight or first thing in the morning. It's the only thing that keeps me going...



Saturday, June 28, 2008

Life In Graduate School!



Dr. Ritter is one of my most favorite people in the whole world. Her love for Jesus and people keeps her going above and beyond the call of duty. She is extremely passionate and dedicated to the ministry God has given her as a Speech-Language Pathologist. I have learned so much from her, and appreciate that God would allow such a person to be a part of my life. I am surviving graduate school, because of her unwavering support and encouragement. She's the greatest!


Rocks! This summer these kids are motivated by rocks! Who would have thought? You would not believe the stiff competition to earn as many points as possible to receive a rock! Dr. Ritter has convinced all of us that we need to be collecting them! Ha! She even has us wearing rock necklaces! 



This is my amazing partner, Brooke. She and I lead group together. Here she is reading a book to our kids called "Do Pirates Take Baths?" They really liked this one! As you can see, we dress up every Thursday depending upon the theme. So far, we have dressed up as pirates, cowboys, and bugs! This week we get to dress up as fairy tale characters. 



Each week, we make something to go through the process of learning "How To." For example, we introduce what we are making to our kids, list the materials, talk about the sequential steps, and then follow the directions to make our "How To." Our first week, we made pirate maps. Our second week, we made story books. You can imagine the kids come up with some great titles for their stories! This week we made butterflies out of coffee filters and Oreo spiders out of Oreos and pretzels (pictured above). 


This is my "cute as a bug" friend, Laura McCall. Get it? Ha! She always has the best costumes every week! This week a few of us decided to be lightning bugs at the last minute! We just forgot to take any pictures together! Sorry! 

Mrs.Holland, Brooke, Me, & Laura.


My precious friend, Kati! She is also my lab partner. 

Videostroboscopy!

Me & Brooke!

This is just a sign I made for my door!

This is me and my incredible supervisor, Mrs.Holland. I have learned so much from her in such a short amount of time, and have had a lot of fun in the process. I wish she didn't have to go back to Amarillo!

Catching Up!

This week I was not feeling very well, but God took care of me. A little bug seemed to be going around the clinic. With a little medicine and a lot of prayer, I survived. God used a variety of people and things to get me through the week, and I am so grateful. My best friend, Savannah, sent me the sweetest card and worship cd at just the perfect time. I received phone calls and e-mails from different ones that brought an immediate smile to my face. I got my test back that I mentioned in my last post. I made a B+! Thank You Jesus. You continue to pour out grace upon grace. I am getting ready to begin my last week of Camp Success. I can't believe how quickly these five weeks have passed. I wish I could tell you about my clients and show you their pictures, but I can't. There are too many laws against it. You will just have to take my word for it that they are super cute! I have learned so much in this first session, and I am really looking forward to the next. I am less than a month away from my major PRAXIS exam. Please pray! It has been so hard to study, but I must remain diligent. Today, I plan on studying, working on my fluency project, putting together my instrumentation notebook, and running a few errands. Right now, I have to run. No, not literally. Although, I need to do that too. Chris and I are meeting some friends of ours for lunch before he has to go to work. They are leaving Monday morning and moving to Kansas. We will miss them so much. That reminds me... Pray for Chris. He is working very hard. I am so proud of him. Pray that the joy of the Lord would be his strength. We all know that when we get tired is when the enemy loves to mess with us. Please pray for God's protection and power. Catching up will be continued...

Monday, June 23, 2008

He Loves Us!

When I saw this video, I had to put it up too! (Thanks Savannah!) I wish I could take the time to put down some of my thoughts, but I am studying! I have a big test today. If you think about it, pray for me at 11:30 a.m. Thanks!

Thank You Jesus for loving us!

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Hippo's!

"From the lips of children and infants, you have ordained praise"...(Psalm 8:2).

Today looked very different from any other day, and I loved it! Chris and I signed up to work in our church nursery. We will be volunteering every week, and we are so excited! We are the proud, new teachers of the two-year old "Hippo" class. You should have seen us last night preparing for our lesson. We were having so much fun memorizing Scripture with motions! Not knowing quite what to expect, we were full of anticipation of what this morning might entail. We arrived at 8:35 a.m., ready for the task at hand, and headed to our room! One by one, our helpers arrived. I am not sure what we would have done without them! It was definitely a team effort! We had sixteen two-year olds! I must admit that it was a little overwhelming, but totally worth it. We definitely got our workout for the day! We played, talked about Jesus, ate snacks, made crafts, and changed diapers! Yes, I changed eight diapers! Overall, it was such a sweet time. We can't wait for next week! Thank You Jesus that we get the incredible opportunity of loving two-year olds! What a gift! 

Saturday, June 21, 2008

Think About It!

Isn't it funny how we can think ourselves into any mood? Joyce Meyer would say that the mind is the battlefield! If you haven't read her book, "Battlefield Of The Mind," you need too. It talks about how a deceived mind leads a deceived life. Jesus warns us in Matthew 24:4 to "See that no one leads you astray." Think about the thoughts that go through our mind in a day and how they can affect us. Think about the way we over analyze things. Satan loves to asks questions and stir up trouble. He's been doing it since the beginning of time. It is what led to the fall of man and keeps man falling. "Now the serpent was more crafty than any of the wild animals the LORD God had made. He said to the woman, 'Did God really say, 'You must not eat from any tree in the garden'?" The woman said to the serpent, "We may eat fruit from the trees in the garden, but God did say, 'You must not eat from the fruit from the tree that is in the middle of the garden, and you must not touch it, or you will die.' " You will not surely die," the serpent said to the woman. "For God knows that when you eat of it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil." When the woman saw that the fruit of the tree was good for food and pleasing to the eye, and also desirable for gaining wisdom, she took some and ate it. She also gave some to her husband, who was with her, and he ate it" (Genesis 3:1-6). How easily we can be deceived! Satan is a liar and the father of all lies. We must not listen to him. Scripture admonishes us to not be conformed to this world, but to be transformed (changed entirely) by the renewing of our minds. It is when we have been transformed (changed entirely) that we are able to determine what is God's good, acceptable, and perfect will for our lives. A change of mind means a change of life! Think about it!

Click on the link below for helpful resources concerning the mind.




Friday, June 20, 2008

Victory!

"Victorious lives flow from victorious thoughts, from setting our focus on a victorious God." 
-Beth Moore

"Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the Author and Perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider Him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart." Hebrews 12:1-3

This verse really spoke to me this morning. I can remember talking to my mentor and friend, Kim Scott, about "pushing back the darkness." What does it mean to live a victorious life? According to this verse, I think it means several things...

1) Recognizing who surrounds us. Specifically, those in Hebrews 11 whose witness stirs us to run and win! They have gone before us, and it has been said of them "Well done, my good and faithful servant!"
2) Throwing everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. With each new day that God gives me, I realize it is impossible to live victorious without "pushing back the darkness." I must always run with perseverance the race marked out for me. I can't stop. There is no such thing as coasting in a Christ follower's life. Scripture says that we should leave no such room or foothold for the devil (Ephesians 4:27). Paul is saying, "Don't give the devil an opportunity." When I talk about "pushing back the darkness," I am talking about not being passive. I must be active. Joyce Meyer says, "One of the devil's most deceiving tricks is to get you to do nothing and to feel content about it." We must throw off every little thing that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. It's not about not doing anything wrong, but it is about doing good! It's about following Christ with our whole heart, seeking Him first each and every day. As believers we are instructed to put on the full armor of God, so that we might stand against the schemes of the devil. Oh, how I want to stand! Don't you? But I also want to fire back at him! Amen? We need protection, but we also need ammunition! 
3) Fix our eyes on Jesus. What we behold, we will become! We must fix our eyes on Him. Passion comes from setting our eyes on something bigger than ourselves. My friend Kim Scott had me read a book called "I am not, but I know I AM" by Louie Giglio. If you haven't read it, I encourage you to do so. It has stayed with me ever since I picked it up a few years ago. It's about being a part of a story that is so much bigger than ourselves, His story. So, what does it look like to fix our eyes on Jesus? Our college pastor, Carl Gulley, wrote an incredible spoken worship piece that (I believe) hits the nail on the head. It's called "Otherness." This is only part of it, but you should be able to get the idea. 

"Otherness...
That's what we are all about!
We are not trying to be like anyone or anything else!
Just Jesus!
And it makes us look like aliens, foreigners in a distant land.
We stick out, and humbly so.
Why? Because the way we love is so unusual.
Our words bring tears of laughter and tears of solace.
Our music and dance are fueled by a different drummer.
And a better one at that! And the fruit, it's a different song, a different value system.
Not pushing the edge of sin and hell, not okay with status quo.
A place where beneficial versus permissible is clearly understood.
And no one even wants the boundary line! 
We would much rather lunge out to the kingdoms cutting edge, which are heaven's arms.
Sitting on His lap is fine with me; His heartbeat rhythmically puts me at rest. 
Not apathetic slumber that leads to poverty, but deep love that thrust us to Nineveh!
Look again! His tears aren't clear. They don't taste like salt.
They taste like the blood that was shed for them.
They are waiting for you, waiting for me to open our hands.
So, He can pour them out. Why would He trust us with these treasures, these precious children of His? Because He calls us family, He can trust us.
Because we have seen the otherness of God, and we long for more!
For if you God were the same as the rest, You wouldn't be holy.
And my unholiness craves Your holiness! Your cleansing! You!
And in the process, we become other ourselves.
And the importance of that...
So many stories are being told, vying for my affections, my passion, my heart, but I refuse to be caught up in the midst of small stories that seem brilliant at the moment, 
but soon become faded glory. 
I desire to be taken up into Your story, into Your great plot for me and mankind. 
So, I leap into the chariot of fire, and I ask for humility and courage to leave it all behind - 
no matter the cost! 
Because Lord, You deserve it! 
And they need it!
Because, I love You!
And they need You!
And the Spirit and the bride are still crying out,
'Come Lord Jesus!' 
And You will. 
You always do."

We must look at Jesus. It's our only hope of becoming all that He desires us to be. Consider ALL that He has done for us! In the front of my Bible, I have these words written. "If God never does another single thing for me, He's already done MORE than enough." It's a reminder I need quite often. 

Thank You Jesus for enduring such opposition for me. Thank You for Your Word, Your strength, and Your Spirit. May I run the race marked out for me with great perseverance, so that I might live the abundant, victorious life that You died to give me. Thank You for loving me. Thank You for Your patience with me. Thank You that through looking at You and abiding in You, we can have victory!

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Lovely Laura!


    Celebrating 23 Years!


 
 We love our lovely Laura!


Surprise! Happy Birthday!



This morning Brit and I made breakfast for Laura (blueberry pancakes, eggs, and coffee). We only had about thirty minutes before we had to be at class, but we had a great time! 

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Praying God's Word!

Seriously, God is so good! Last night I had a dream that confused me. I woke up a little unsettled this morning. Of course, the first thing I wanted to do was jump into the Word. I grabbed my "Praying God's Word" devotional by Beth Moore. I cannot tell you what a blessing this little book has been. As I turned to today's date, I was so thankful to be reminded that "Satan will do anything he can to scare you away from your God-ordained destiny." I can't go into detail about my dream, but you know those dreams that make you second guess that you are in the right place? Well, it was one of those! So, I opened up my Bible to Psalm 116. "I love You Lord, because You have heard (and now hear) my voice and my supplications. Because You have inclined Your ear to me, therefore I will call upon You as long as I live. The cords and sorrows of death were around me, and the terrors of Sheol had laid hold of me; I suffered anguish and grief (trouble and sorrow). Then I called upon the name of the Lord: O Lord, I beseech You, save my life and deliver me! Gracious are You Lord, and righteous; yes, You are merciful. You preserve the simple; I was brought low, and You helped and saved me. Thank You that, in You, I find rest. My soul can rest, because you have dealt with me bountifully. You continually deliver my life from death, my eyes from tears, and my feet from stumbling and falling. I will walk before You in the land of the living. I will believe (trust in, rely on, and cling to You God)." 

"When I am weak, unable to speak,
Still, I will call You by name...
Oh, Shepherd, Savior, Pasture Maker,
Hold on to my hand.
You say, 'I Am.'

The winds of change and circumstance,
Blow in and all around us,
So, we find a foothold that's familiar.
And bless the moments that we feel You nearer..."
-Nicole Nordeman



Sunday, June 15, 2008

Happy Father's Day!



Most of you know how much I like pictures! Today, I choose to celebrate my Dad through just a few of them. We have so many meaningful memories together, and I wanted to honor him for all he's done and continues to do. So, Dad this is for you...


I love this picture. Even though I am playing in 
a pool and only six years old, this picture still
represents everything my Dad is about in my life.
Whatever decisions I make or steps I take, he is
there. He loves being a part of the process, and 
continues to play the perfect role with each 
year that passes. My Dad is trustworthy. As a 
little girl, I didn't mind making that "big" jump
into the "deep" end of the pool. I knew my Dad 
would be there to catch me. I have never doubted 
his love and devotion. There is a security there that 
I will forever be grateful for and will always lead me 
to choose faith over fear. I know that he delights in
me, because I see it in his face and hear it in his 
voice. Even when I mess up, he is there with open
arms, ready to embrace me. I delight in being his 
daughter. My Dad has taught me what it means to 
trust. I have always been able to count on my Dad for 
anything and everything. He has been the biggest reason 
I have been able to know my Heavenly Father as He is - 
an extravagant Lover of His children and forever
faithful. Thank You Dad for loving me so much
and so well. 


Those of you who know my Dad know that I don't 
have to tell you how much fun he is. Growing up 
on the lake was one of the best things for our family.
Whether we are at the lake, on vacation, or at home,
Dad never fails to make it fun! He is the life of the
party. My Dad is all about family and all about people.
He is so good about including others and making 
people feel loved. Over the years, I have learned so
much from him. He is a servant and one of the greatest
givers I have ever seen in my life. He cheerfully gives
of himself each and every day, and I will forever be 
changed because of his generosity. Thank You Dad
for always being available. Every minute you spend
with us means more than you know. 


I love this picture, because it is such a "Kodak"
moment. I am sure we were just "singing in the
rain." Ha! I actually don't remember this actual
event, but what I love about it is that my Dad is
holding me. You can see that we are both smiling.
It seems to be a re-occurring theme with my Dad -
everyone all smiles. Thank You Dad for always 
holding me when I needed it the most and just
because. Your touch means so much, and it always
will.


There seems to be a lot of water in these pictures!
Ha! Thank You Dad for being the one on the floor,
in the water, or wherever it was we wanted to play.
Thank You for getting on our level and making us
feel like we were the only girls in the world. It's 
always been a special thing to be one of the "Smith"
girls! Whether it was taking us to the lake or
renting our favorite car on vacation, you have always
put our interests above your own.


Daddy, Thank you for loving Mom like Christ loves
the church. Thank you for showing us what it means
to lay down your rights and your life. Thank you for
the team approach that you and Mom take on every-
thing. Thank you for not hiding conflict from us, 
but teaching us to love each other more in the midst
of it. Thank you for being crazy about Mom and still 
pursuing her passionately after twenty-six years. 
Thank you for being the first to say that you are sorry.
Thank you for your humility and honesty. You have led 
and continue to lead our family so well. 


Thank you for being you! Thank you for every
e-mail, phone call, letter, etc. It makes my day
when I hear from you. I smile every time I think
of you, and I can honestly say that there is no one
else I would rather have be my Dad. Thank You God
for allowing me to have such an incredible father, 
who reflects so much of Your character.

Saturday, June 14, 2008

18 Months!



Thank You Jesus for the love You show me through Chris McMullen. Thank You for 18 months! I recognize that he is a gift from You, the Giver of all good gifts. Thank You that I am learning more about who You are and who I am not through this man. Thank You that he loves you and passionately pursues You. Thank You that You continue to show us our need for You far outweighs our need for each other. Thank You for the place You have us at this very moment. Help us to know and be confident that You will continue to direct every step as we trust You. Thank You for the blessings You continually pour out on us, be it trials or triumphs, we count it all joy! You are worthy of all our praise. You are the Author and Perfecter of our love and our lives. We fix our eyes on You. We throw off everything that so easily entangles us. We only boast in You. We say that You are full of wisdom, power, and might. Captivate us and consume us with You!

Perfect Love Of Jesus!


Our weekend began with an amazing lunch with 
just the girls! I have heard about the incredible 
people of Borger, Texas for sometime now, but I 
was truly blessed by their generosity last weekend. 
From the hand sewn napkins to the beautiful arrange-
ments, everything had a personal touch! 
A few of the bridesmaids!

Here she is just minutes before she became Mrs. Courtney McCollum! I have never seen someone so joyful and peaceful before they were about to walk down the aisle. It was so neat! All day, my beautiful friend was all smiles! It was truly a special weekend that was such a reflection of the purest love of Christ. From the bridal luncheon to the wedding reception, God spoke this to my heart over and over again "As a bridegroom rejoices over his bride, so will I rejoice over you" (Isaiah 62:5). It has been the biggest blessing to see how Matt has delighted in Courtney up until she walked down the aisle last Saturday night, but I am confident that Matt will continue to delight in his new wife for the rest of their lives. I love how God gives us pictures on earth of His overwhelming and relentless love. I get excited thinking about how much Matt loves Courtney, but even more so how much Christ loves each of us. He rejoices over us, each one individually. He is so personal. Thank You Jesus for living a life of love and then choosing to die for love. Thank You that Your love is what lives in our hearts and what lasts forever. 


Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Behind!

Hello Everyone! I just finished my first week of summer session, and now I am into my second week! It's a little hectic. Today, I am thankful for an amazing weekend with family and friends in Borger, Texas! My roommate and precious friend Courtney Gassaway married Matt McCollum this weekend! Yay! The wedding was so special! I will be posting pictures soon! I promise! Don't give up on me! Love you all!

Proverbs 13:4 says, "The sluggard craves and gets nothing, but the desires of the diligent are fully satisfied."

I needed to be reminded of this today! Be encouraged. Remember, there is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. 

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

Enthusiasm!

So, I just got home from my "first" day of school. It's almost seven o' clock, and I am wiped out! I looked at my post "Oh God, Give Me The Heart Of A Child!" for a little encouragement. I clicked on what I labeled "Enthusiasm," and I couldn't stop smiling. I needed more of what this little girl had. I looked up the definition for enthusiasm, and here is what I found...

1) great excitement for or interest in a subject or cause.

2) an occupation, activity, or pursuit in which such interest is shown.

3) absorbing or controlling possession of the mind by any interest or pursuit.

4) lively interest.

I began to think. What if I lived my life like this little girl recites "Psalm 23?" What if my eyes always sparkled? What if I always smiled? What if my speech was always full of grace? What if I was enthusiastic about each task that was given to me? What if I worked with all of my heart for the Lord and not for men? I realized that theses questions didn't have to be "What if's?" and that God has given me everything I need for life and godliness. Truly what He calls us to, He will enable us to do! Thank You Jesus! 

School Is Not Out For The Summer!

I start my last semester of graduate school today! I can't believe it! Is it weird that I still get excited about the "first" day of school? Jesus just wouldn't let me sleep last night. It's funny how He wakes us up sometimes. My heart was so full this morning, and I woke up rhyming! Ha. I love to write. I don't claim to be a writer, but Jesus gave this to me in the early hours before my feet hit the floor. I liked it, so I wanted to share it with you. I don't know about you, but anything He has to give...I'll be happy to take! Amen? Love You Jesus! Thanks for speaking and stirring my heart this morning! 


"For His Kingdom, for His Glory!
For more than just our story!
We want You, Jesus! We want You!
We worship! We believe! We repent! 
We walk in humility and confess!
We need You, Jesus!
Our hearts respond to Your revelation!"