A New Year!

Back to blogging. It's been awhile...So much has changed in this last year, yet You have remained the same. For You cannot disown Yourself. I have found all of Your promises to be true, O Lord. Even when we are faithless, You are faithful. There have been a lot of first time experiences, but You have been there for them all. Thank You for the opportunity to live life one more day. Thank You for all that You have done in 2009 to make me ready for 2010. The journey has been hard, but so sweet. Thank You for opening my eyes. Thank You for your protection and provision in my life. Thank You that everything I experienced this past year, good and bad, left me knowing You and loving You more. You are worth it all. I look forward, with great expectation, to what this year might hold. Being confident that the greatest gift I will receive will be finding You, over and over again, in each and every circumstance You allow in my life. May I be quick to search with all of my heart, soul, mind, and strength...knowing that You will be found. With everything You have given me in this world, You are still my greatest treasure. Forgive me when I get caught up in myself or the temporary things. Nothing this world could offer could ever compare with You. Help me to maintain focus, fixing my eyes on You...the Author and Perfecter. I trust You with all of my heart, and I know that You will direct my steps. There is freedom in surrender, and I surrender all. I know Your goodness and Your grace in a deeper way, and I am grateful. Lord, I pray that You would find me faithful. In spite of my hopes and fears, Lord, You know them all...May Your will be done in my life.

More Of You!

"In this dry and weary land
My eyes grow dim
I cannot stand without You
My heart aches
My body longs
I cry to You
Restore my song again
Again

How can I find You, Lord
You're all that I adore
My soul is thirsty for
Waters of life
Rivers of joy
I've tasted and I've seen
There's no one else for me

Come now and hear my plea
For more of You
I need more of You

Having reached the end of me
I turn away from everything
But You, God

Who on earth can satisfy
It's You I need
My very breath of life

How can I find you Lord
You're all that I adore
My soul is thirsty for
Waters of life
Rivers of Joy

I've tasted and I've seen
There's no one else for me
Come now and here my plea
For more of You
I need more of You

More of Your power
More of Your spirit
More of Your love in my life
More of Your passion
More of Your vision
Teach me to see through Your eyes

I've tasted and I've seen
There's no one else for me
Come now and hear my plea
For more of You
I need more of You"

-Meredith Andrews

Baylor Homecoming 2009!

There is no place like home! We had a wonderful time

celebrating 100 years at Baylor! Here are a few pictures

from our weekend!

We made the most of the game! Unfortunately, we lost!

However, we had fun just being together.

We spent a lot of time with the Rife family. They are precious.

Carter and Meredith enjoying riding in style!

Meredith, looking beautiful as always!

Meredith and Carter had a crazy weekend!

This was a quick change in the bathroom.

"Steppin To The Bad Side" by KOT

2nd Place SING Act!

Featuring: Meredith Smith

Waiting for Meredith and Carter

in the parade!

In all of our years at Baylor, they have been

so supportive! Love you Mom and Dad!

Just finished performing!

Meredith represented KOT as homecoming

court and queen nominee!

Love my Dad!

Love my Mom!

Grace!

Thank you Jesus for Your grace! A few days ago, I watched a man be interviewed. He was sitting in jail for armed robbery. However, his story was just a little bit different. He walked into a bank with a loaded gun. What did he find? He found a woman that started crying out in prayer and calling on the name of Jesus. He began to tear up. He told the woman he didn't want to do this, but he had no choice. The woman spoke to this young man with love and compassion. She continued to pray. He dropped to his knees. She hugged him. He asked her to pray with him. Together, they called on the name of Jesus. They were saved! His name is power! The woman reported that the prayer was simple and from the heart. The Lord heard their cry and saved them! The young man took the bullet out of the gun and did not harm the woman. He turned himself into the police. When asked about this recent situation, the young man said that no one had ever talked to him like this woman. He even went on to say that he didn't actually think it was this woman talking to him. He thought it was God talking to Him through her! The young man said that he had always believed in Christ, but he had never walked with Christ and had a real relationship with Him. This young man's name is Greg Smith. He is currently serving time in prison. Let's pray for him that He may come to know what is the width and length and depth and height— to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge; that he would be filled with all the fullness of God. Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, to Him be glory! (Ephesians 3:17-21). Check out Bebe and Cece Winans new song "Grace." It's a sweet and powerful reminder for all of us!

Happy Birthday Regan!

Joe T. Garcia's

Birthday Girl!

Courtney, Jennifer, Me, Chelsea

Regan, Brittany, Amber, Alison

Food! Fun! Friends! Music! Laughter! Good Times!

Picture Review!

Over the years, I have realized how important it is for me to document what I am doing and what God is doing in my life. I've done it various ways, but I think that is why I like blogging so much. I haven't been keeping up as well as some, but I am trying. If I blog as I go, I have this beautiful online scrapbook of all the wonderful moments God has given me. I have a journal of what He is teaching me. I can look back and hopefully see growth and progress! We are all on a journey to know Him more, to love Him more, to make Him known. As I am sitting here doing this "Picture Review," I am realizing how many times I didn't bring my camera when I was apart of something really special or with someone really special. I haven't written about all the sweet times that the Lord has given me with my friends and family. I really want to do a better job of posting. Even if it is two sentences and no pictures! God is at work in me, in my friends, and in my family. It must be shared. If not for anyone else, for myself. I must be able to look back and recount His faithfulness. For I know that He is faithful! How soon we forget! How prone we are to wander, to look to other people or other things! I won't compare. I will be content. I will look to You Lord. I will speak of Your faithfulness. I know that You are good. No matter the circumstances of my life! Thank You Lord for the abundant life I have in You! Thank You for these moments I did capture with my camera. Thank You for the moments that were not captured by a camera but definitely captured my heart. I recognize they are all sweet gifts from You!

Love these girls! We had a great time visiting Matt & Court's

new home! Matt was out of town, so we had a slumber party!

A big group of people met for Amber's birthday in Dallas!

I love Meredith & Carter! I am so thankful my sister

is dating such a wonderful person that we all think the world of!

Savannah and I stopped by to see Mere in Waco!

Brad & Laura tied the knot! Beautiful couple, inside and out!

The brick was delivered! Thank You Lord for

a few days of no rain!

Matt & Court came to see my house! They have started bricking!

It shouldn't be long! Thank You Lord!

Bryan & Chelsey were married on June 27, 2009!

Three months and counting!

Poppy is staying with me this week! She recently attended

a banquet in honor of dogs rescued through the Humane Society.

Mimi (Mom) and B.P. (Dad) took her and had a great time.

Mimi bought her this tutu to wear.

One of my best friends from high school and college, Ashley,

has been married three years. She and her husband, Jesse,

just welcomed Ruth Marie Bullard into the world in July!

This is the first of my closest friends to have a baby!

We are so proud of her! Savannah flew all the way in from

Atlanta, Georgia to be with us! It was a great weekend in

Houston, Texas!

Pure!

"Your love is pure. Your love is precious. Your love is all I need. Your love surrounds me. Your love astounds me. Your love is everything. I run to You when my heart is weak. I cling to You. You're all I seek. It's my hearts desire to be close to You. Here in Your arms, I'll find my strength. Your love is pure. Your love is precious. Your love is all I need. Your love surrounds me. Your love astounds me. Your love is everything. I run to You when my heart is weak. I cling to You. You're all I seek. It's my hearts desire to be close to You. Here in your arms, I'll find my strength. Safe in Your arms. I find my strength. Everything I want! Everything I hope in! Everything my heart cries out for! Everything I want! Everything I hope in! Everything my heart cries out for! Everything I want! Everything I hope in! Everything my heart cries out for!" -Gateway Worship

So Long September!

September has been a whirlwind but absolutely wonderful! I have had the opportunity to be with some of my closest friends and family on a weekly basis this month! The first week of September I worked a lot, even on Labor Day! I am just thankful that I love my job! The second week of September I was able to spend time with my college roommates on two different occasions. We have such a great time when we get together! It's awesome. We never run out of things to talk about, and we always keep each other laughing! Since I have been working so much, it makes it nice to have something so refreshing to look forward to. Also, I signed up to play softball this month too. However, I don't think it is meant to be. The first week I was supposed to play, I got in a car wreck. Thank goodness that it wasn't major, and no one was hurt. But my car did have to go to the shop for two weeks. Five thousand dollars later, my car was fixed! Thank You Lord for great insurance and a low deductible. The second week I was supposed to play softball, I got a sinus infection. No fun! I went into work for a few hours and ended up going to the doctor. Thank You Lord for Z-PAKS! The third, fourth, and fifth week I was supposed to play softball, it rained! Oh well, maybe another time! Last weekend, I finally made it back to Waco! I think it was the high-light of the month! My whole family was together. So many of my good friends were there. I didn't even get to see all of them, but it made me feel happy just to know we were all there! I went to the bookstore, and bought more Baylor gear! I tailgated with my sister, the newest KOT sweetheart! I am so proud of her. I had countless people come up to me and tell me what an amazing person she is. I love when other people see what the Lord is doing in Mere's life. It brings me so much joy as a sister. We went to the Baylor football game, and I actually had to stand in line for thirty minutes to get in. I was shocked and so excited! Next time, I won't stand around and talk so long in Touchdown Alley. Unfortunately, we all know how the game turned out, but this week we destroyed the demons! Ha! Hopefully, next week we will keep it up! GO BEARS! I was able to worship with my friends at Antioch on Sunday morning. I saw so many of the ones I love and had such a sweet time of fellowship. It always feels like home in Waco, and I love it. I miss my once fifth and sixth grade girls that have grown up to be high-school girls! I can't believe it. They are all more beautiful than ever, inside and out. I was able to see Jordan Mathews for a few minutes. She made me a "Justice Jar." It's adorable, pink with flowers. More importantly, it's a way to help their family with the financial costs of adoption. Their journey with God in this process and their obedience to Him has been so neat to be a small part of, and I am blessed to be able to contribute. I can't wait to meet sweet Justice! Finally, this last weekend in September, I had the privilege of seeing one of my dearest friends, Kati. She drove in on Friday night, and we had the best time. I went and picked up dinner at Charleston's and we stayed up talking all night. Well, all night being midnight! Ha! We are getting so old! Kati just graduated from Baylor with her Master's in Speech Pathology. She and her husband Tim are living in Wylie, TX and love it. I miss them very much. Yesterday, I worked until 8:30pm! I received a phone call from a friend of mine I haven't seen in forever, and she was in town. So, Lauren came to my apartment and we visited until midnight! I love that the Lord has given me such precious friends that love Him and love me. My heart is full! Needless to say, this morning I was moving slow. I woke up with an overwhelming need to just be still and know that He is God. Sometimes, I need to just take a few hours to reflect on His goodness, on who He is, on what He is doing and has done in my life! This afternoon will be busy again! I am going to a Southern Living Party hosted by Regan Haggerty - of course! She is the party queen! I can't wait to see her and shop a little. Then, my parents are coming in town, and we have more stuff to do for the house! I think the song that keeps coming to mind this month is "So Good To Me" by Cory Asbury. This song is such a great reminder of His truth and all that we have in Him! Thank You for being so good to me Jesus! Truly, those who look to You lack no good thing. Thank You for Your love, joy, peace, and righteousness in the Holy Spirit! Praise You!

Dreams!

"You taste the tears
You're lost in sorrow
You see your yesterdays
I see tomorrow

You see the darkness
I see the spark
You know your failures
But I know your heart

The dreams I dream for you
Are deeper than the ones you're clinging to
More precious than the finest things you knew
And truer than the treasures you pursue
Let the old dreams die
Like stars that fade from view
Then take the cup I offer
And drink deeply of
The dreams I dream for you

You see your shame
But I see your glory
You've read one page
I know the story

I hold a vision
That you'll become
As you grow into the truth
As you learn to walk in love

Let the old dreams die
Like stars that fade from view
Then take the cup I offer
And drink deeply of
The dreams I dream for you"

-Avalon

I Simply Come!

Lord,

I simply come. It's all I can do. I love meeting with You. Help me to show up every morning and all throughout the day. Thank You for every opportunity You give me to experience You. It makes all of life worth living. Nothing compares to relationship with You. You are what I am after! Forgive me when I find myself looking at other things as if they might be better or bring more satisfaction. You alone, Lord, are worthy!

"Unless the LORD builds the house, those who build it labor in vain." Psalm 127:1

Well, this is just one of the many gifts God has given me recently. I am so fortunate to be able to have the opportunity to build a home. I don't feel old enough, wise enough, or strong enough to be doing all that I am at this point in my life. However, I know the Lord of Lords and King of Kings is everything I am not. He continues to make a way for me when there seems to be no way, and I am grateful. I am not sure how the Lord wants to use this home in my life, but I pray that He would be high and lifted up in this place He has so graciously given me for this time. Please be in prayer with me for how He wants to use this gift in my life. I am asking my friends, His body, to join me in laying the foundation of a Godly home. Without Him, I can do nothing. Apart from Him, I am nothing. My hearts desire is to abide. This is a very special, faith-building time in my life. One day at work, God laid on my heart the words..."Firm Foundation." Now the Lord is laying on my heart to ask those of you who want to be apart of this journey with me, to send me a Scripture that you will commit to praying over this new home God has given me. It will be a testimony of His faithfulness, another opportunity for me to share of His goodness. At first, I was going to send an e-mail to a few friends asking that they take the time to come out to the house and write on the foundation. A few of you have had the opportunity to do so, but I think the Lord might have more promises for how He wants to use this home than I could possibly dream up or imagine. I would like to compile whatever I receive and place it on my coffee table as a reminder for me and also a testimony for all to see! This way I will never forget the meaning of why God has given me this home. It won't be for my own comfort, although it will be comfortable. It's not mine. It is His for me to share. So, I thought..."Why not share now?" If God stirs your heart, please be apart!

Zephaniah 3:17!

"The Lord your God is in the midst of you, a Mighty One, a Savior [Who saves]! He will rejoice over you with joy; He will rest [in silent satisfaction] and in His love He will be silent and make no mention [of past sins, or even recall them]; He will exult over you with singing." Zephaniah 3:17

Lord Jesus,

Thank You that you exult over me with singing! Thank You for giving me the faith to believe in my dry, weary places. Thank You that You are always near. Thank You for holding me. Thank You for Your faithful songs that never stop. You are more than enough. Truly, there is freedom in surrender. I know that I am safe in Your arms.

"When I waited so long, when my tears were my song

With my hope nearly gone, You held me God
To believe in the face of the dry, weary place
When You felt far away, You held me God

Oh, there is freedom in surrender, oh I know it

Your songs have never stopped
You've been singing, always singing over me
Your words are still enough
And You're singing, always singing over me

The chaos in the cause teaching me to see Lord
The beauty in the storm so I believe
When I see through Your eyes, through the testing of time

Every cloud silver lined 'cause You're with me

Oh, there is freedom in surrender, oh I know it

Your songs have never stopped
You've been singing, always singing over me
Your words are still enough
And You're singing

Give me faith
Give me strength enough to wait
To stand in faith
And listen for, listen for Your melody

Your songs have never stopped
Your songs have never stopped

Your songs have never stopped
You've been singing, always singing over me
Your words are still enough
And You're singing, always singing over me

Your songs have never stopped
You've been singing, always singing over me
Your words are still enough
And You're singing, always singing over me
Always singing over me, always singing over me
Always singing over me"

-Kari Jobe

Hope!

I am thankful for every trial and what He is developing and accomplishing in me. Thank You Jesus for every breath You have given me. Every day is one that You have made. I will rejoice and be glad in it. Help me to see the beauty in the mundane, the masterpiece in the mess, and the light in the dark! You are my Rock and my Salvation. My hope is in You all day long...

Abba Father!

"You sing over me

You dance over me

You cover me with grace

Mercy so free

Keeps giving to me

Oh, how I love this place

And You quiet me with Your love

You quiet me with Your love

You are healing me

Abba Father

Abba Father

Abba Father

Abba Father

You lead me beside

The waters of life

I'm fiercely satisfied

Restoring my soul

You make me whole

Oh, how I love Your ways

And You quiet me with Your love

You quiet with me Your love

You are healing me

Abba Father

Abba Father

Abba Father

You call me Your child 

You call me Your own

You call me unto my destiny

I call You my King

I call You my Love

I call You Father

And You quiet me with Your love

You quiet me with Your love

You are healing me..."

-Klaus & Kari Jobe

Dear Heavenly Father,

         Thank You that You win victory after victory. Thank You that You are always with us, celebrating and singing because of us! Thank You for refreshing my life with Your love. Thank You for loving me enough to continue to call me out to the destiny that You have for me. Only in You, I am satisfied. Above all else, I ask that You would give me more of You. May all other goals bow down to this journey of loving You more...

I Am Free!

"So, I pray...

Bring me joy

Bring me peace

Bring the chance to be free

Bring me anything that brings you glory

And I know there'll be days

When this life brings me pain

But if that's what it takes to praise You

Jesus, bring the rain..."

-MercyMe

Your grace is greater still. Jesus, thank You for the opportunity to praise You in the storm. You are Holy. You are in control. You are Emmanuel. 

True Identity!

When we are positioned in the intimacy of His arms, we have a different perspective on life. This morning I was blessed by the message the Lord spoke through our pastor. He reminded us of our true identity. If we don't know who we are or whose we are, we will never live up to our calling. In Him, we live and move and breathe. We must always remember and never forget. Paul tells us in 2 Corinthians 5:21 that God made Him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in Him we might become the righteousness of God. We are not simply sinners saved by grace. We are saints, and He has qualified us to share in His inheritance. For He alone has rescued us from the dominion of darkness and brought us into the kingdom of the Son He loves, in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins. We are raised up in the love and power that sets us free the very moment we believe. The very moment...We do not stand before Him related by performance but grace! Praise You Jesus! We can come just as we are. Hebrews 10:14 says, "For by a single offering He has perfected  for all time those who are being sanctified." Our pastor reminded us of this simple but profound truth that I think we sometimes forget. Perfected forever. Being sanctified. Perfected meaning already perfect. When we come to Him, He says the old is gone and the new has come. What a gift! Christ doesn't just wipe the slate clean. There is no slate with Christ. He just forgives and makes new. We are saints, chosen by Him...to be holy. That brings me to the second part - being sanctified. Sanctification does not mean perfection reached, but the progress of the divine life to be more like Christ. Why do we impose this process on ourselves and others to arrive at being sanctified. We are saints, holy and dearly loved, because of His work....not ours. When temptations arise, we must remember who we are and whose we are. Perspective. If we see ourselves as Christ sees us...perfected forever and being sanctified...what the enemy has to offer will never fit into our identity. Satan is out to steal, kill, and destroy. He is like a lion, seeking whom he may devour. When he comes, we must know the truth and blast him with it! As children of God, He is in our midst. He is mighty to save. He rejoices over us with singing and quiets us with His love. He delights in us. May we delight in Him, in every part of who He is....and by His grace...who He has made us to be. Praise You Jesus. Thank you for perfecting us for all time and for being patient with us in the sanctification process. Truly, we are a blessed people. Thank You for Your indescribable gift! Help us to walk in the newness of life. May we live for what You died for and gladly accept Your inheritance. We love You Jesus. We love You!

You Are For Me!

"So faithful, so constant

So loving and so true

So powerful in all You do

You fill me, You see me

You know my every move

You love for me to sing to You

I know that You are for me

I know that You are for me

I know that You will never forsake me in my weaknesses

I know that You have come now

Even if to write upon my heart

To remind me who You are

So patient, so gracious

So merciful and true

So wonderful in all You do

You fill me, You see me

You know my every move

You love for me to sing to You

Lord, I know that You are for me

I know that You are for me

I know that You will never forsake me in my weaknesses

I know that You have come now 

Even if to write upon my heart

To remind me...

That I know that You are for me

I know that You are for me

I know that You will never forsake me in my weaknesses

I know that You have come now even if to write upon my heart

To remind me who You are..."

-Kari Jobe

"What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare His own Son, but gave Him up for us all - how will He not also, along with Him, graciously give us all things?" Romans 8:31-32

Lord Jesus, 

Thank You that there is no condemnation for those who are in You. Thank You that, through the cross, You set us free from the law of sin and death. Thank You for allowing Yourself to become a sin offering. Thank You that You have given us the way to live in accordance with the Spirit. How I long to have a mind that is always set on what the Spirit desires. Your Word tells us that the mind controlled by the Spirit is life and peace. Thank You that, when we accept Your precious gift of salvation, Your Spirit comes to live within us and we are controlled by it. Thank You that the Spirit of Your Father who raised You from the dead is the same Spirit that lives within us. What power! Thank You that we did not receive a spirit that makes us slaves to fear, but the Spirit of Sonship. And by You, we cry, "Abba Father." Thank You that Your Spirit testifies that we are God's children. Thank You that through being Your children, we are also heirs of God and co-heirs with You. Thank You that Your Spirit helps us in our weaknesses and intercedes for all the saints in accordance with Your will. Thank You that all things work together for good, to those who love You and are called according to Your purpose. Thank You that nothing can separate us from Your love, and that You are for us in every way!

Top Ten For Today!

Today, I am thankful...

1. He is my Healer.

2. He alone is all I need.

3. That nothing is impossible for Him.

4. For precious friends who call just because!

5. For His sweet reminders of who He is and how much He loves.

6. For new opportunities!

7. For a puppy whose tail is always wagging and keeps me smiling.

8. For my health.

9. For my new patio furniture, so that I might enjoy the beautiful day a little bit more.

10. For time to be still and enjoy His presence, even in the midst of the mundane.

My Soul Longs For You!

"My soul longs for You

My soul longs for You

Nothing else will do

Nothing else will do

My soul longs for You

My soul longs for You

Nothing else will do

Nothing else will do

My soul longs for You

My soul longs for You

Nothing else will do

Nothing else will do

I believe You will come like the rain

I believe You will come like the rain

I believe You will come like the rain

I believe You will come like the rain

You'll come like the rain

You'll come like the rain

You'll come like the rain

So, let it rain

Let it rain

Let it rain

Let it rain

So, let it rain

Hallelujah 

Hallelujah

You make all things new

You make all things new

It's just a matter of time 

You're going to turn it around

Hallelujah

Hallelujah

So, let it rain

Let it rain

Let it rain

Let it rain

So, let it rain"

-Misty Edwards

Yes, Lord. I believe You will come like the rain. Thank You Jesus. You are good. 

Feels Like Chaos!

"It's time for healing

Time to move on

It's time to fix what's been broken too long

Time to make right what has been wrong

It's time to find my way to where I belong

There's a wave that's crashing over me

And all I can do is surrender

Whatever You're doing inside of me

It feels like chaos, but somehow there's peace

It's hard to surrender to what I can't see

But I'm giving into something heavenly

Time for a milestone

Time to begin again 

Re-evaluate who I really am

Am I doing everything to follow Your will

Or just climbing aimlessly over these hills

So, show me what it is You want from me

I give everything

I surrender to whatever You're doing inside of me

It feels like chaos, but somehow there's peace

Though it's hard to surrender to what I can't see

I'm giving into something heavenly

Time to face up

Clean this old house

Time to breathe in and let everything out

That I've wanted to say for so many years

Time to release all my held back tears

Whatever You're doing inside of me

It feels like chaos, but I believe

You're up to something bigger than me

Larger than life 

Something heavenly

Whatever You're doing inside of me

It feels like chaos, but now I can see

This is something bigger than me

Larger than life

Something heavenly"

-Sanctus Real

Lord Jesus,

      I know how I can stray, and how fast my heart can change. I pray that You would empty me of my selfishness and pride. I long to be filled with You. Rid me of every vain ambition. Everything is a lesser thing compared to You! You say that if I call out to You, You will answer me. Thank You that You are always there. Thank You that You can give me more than my heart could ever want. Thank You that You are Love. I'm calling out to You. You know every desire of my heart. You know what I need more than I do. I am listening. I am running into Your arms. Hold me forever. Hold me through this storm. I confess that I've run from You in the last few months. I've been wrong. I don't know what's best for me. I need a revelation. Apart from You, I can do nothing. Apart from You, I have nothing. I need You. Forgive me Lord Jesus where I have failed You. Forgive me for being caught up in myself. Take it all, because I can't take it any longer. Once again, I surrender all.

Pain Free?

No matter what it costs, it's always best to be on the Lord's side...

Sunday morning our Pastor brought an incredible and convicting message on choices. Specifically, he focused on choosing to suffer. We looked at Hebrews 11:24-27 that says, "By faith, Moses, when he had grown up, refused to be known as the son of Pharaoh's daughter. He chose to be mistreated along with the people of God rather than to enjoy the pleasures of sin for a short time. He regarded disgrace for the sake of Christ as of greater value than the treasures of Egypt, because he was looking ahead to his reward. By faith he left Egypt, not fearing the king's anger; he persevered because he saw Him who is invisible." Our Pastor reminded us that our world is bent on pleasure and buried in problems. Unfortunately, many believers are as well. We think that if it feels good, surely we should do it. And if it hurts, surely we must stop. Most of us feel that we haven't got time for pain. Why is that? Do we think that we are exceptions to what Scripture clearly indicates? 1 Peter 4:12 says, "Dear friends, do not be surprised at the painful trial you are suffering, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice to participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when His glory is revealed." 2 Timothy 3: 12 says, "In fact, everyone who wants to live a godly life in Christ Jesus will be persecuted." Paul goes on to say that all Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, so that the man of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work. Do we desire to be thoroughly equipped? We must embrace the pain, Christ, and His Word in order to be thoroughly equipped. It's a hard thing to want to suffer. It requires complete surrender and obedience. Remember that no servant is greater than his master. Think of Jesus in the garden. He asked the Lord if there were any other way than the cross. He prayed so hard he sweated drops of blood. Ultimately, He surrendered to what He knew was God's will for His life. When there is no pain, there is no gain. Surrendering has been and continues to be a process for me. I know there will be more that I must lay down to follow Him. I know there will be more times I must choose suffering rather than pleasure. But it will be for His name, His glory, His renown. It will not be in vain. We must trust Him. The more we know Him, the more we understand that it is a privilege to suffer for His sake. The permanent joys of God are far better than the passing pleasures of sin. It's about deferred gratification. Are we willing to give up some things now for what may be God's best later? Psalm 34:19 says, "A righteous man may have many troubles, but the Lord delivers him from them all." As hard as it can be to endure suffering, nothing compares to the cross. "Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love Him" (James 1:12). 

Dreaming!

He knows my heart, and I am dreaming. Will my dreams become a reality? I want to dream His dreams, and I believe I might be. My passion and sole occupation in life is to love Him with all of my heart, soul, mind, and strength. Each and every day, I learn a little bit more about what that looks like. I have many things that I enjoy, but few things that I would spend hours doing. My Dad always asked me, "If you could do anything and not get paid for it, what would you do?" My response has always been that I would sing and take pictures. I don't see anyone ever paying me to sing for them and that is okay. I am not even sure anyone would ever pay me to take pictures for them either. However, I see both dreams as another way to love people, minister to people, and display the glory of God. All I want is to do what I love for Him. I love having the privilege of capturing what God is doing in the lives of different people. This has been a burning desire for some time. I am not sure what He will allow, but I am submitting and surrendering my dreams.

Taming The Tongue!

"Words are the vehicle through which we communicate our thoughts; the tongue is the driver. Moving in spiritual maturity requires that we learn to speak the right words in the right season and for the right reason." -Deborah Smith Pegues

"The Sovereign Lord has given me an instructed tongue, to know the word that sustains the weary. He wakens me morning by morning, wakens my ear to listen like one being taught." Isaiah 50:4 

Poppy!

Well, most of you will never believe this, but I got a dog! Yes, you are reading right...a dog! I am not sure what I was thinking, but I did it. As my Dad tried to sit and warn me of what I was getting myself into, I was signing the papers to adopt "Poppy." Poppy was just one of many puppies that needed to be adopted. However, as I went around to each one, I found that she and I connected. I loved her from the beginning, mainly because she was the only one who didn't bother my allergies. It was a miracle! Another reason I loved her was because she sat quiet while all the others barked incessantly. Of course, if I were in a cage and knew I didn't have a home, I would bark too. She was the perfect size, had the perfect face, and I wanted her to be mine. I couldn't imagine her going back to the pound and being put down. Now, you may be asking how I named her. Well, she came with the name "Poppy." I thought it was sweet. I looked up the meaning and besides it being a wildflower...it also means a wandering female pet. Since she was a stray, I thought it fit her perfectly!

24!

Last Wednesday, November 12, I turned 24 years old! I didn't have time to write about my day, but it was wonderful. I woke up to my roommate, Regan, making breakfast for me. She had all of my favorite things...pigs in a blanket, chocolate chip muffins, eggs, and orange juice! Calories don't count on your birthday, right? She gave me a sweet card, a book about friendship, flowers, a birthday balloon, and a sign she decorated herself! As soon as my feet hit the floor, I was receiving phone calls from the ones I love the most. It was awesome. I felt so loved. I got to work and my supervisor had also gotten me a gift. She bought me the cutest journal that I can't wait to use! I had a great day with some of my favorite patients, and then it was time for lunch. I sat down to eat, and there was a knock at the door. It was Chris! He brought me the most beautiful Gerber daisies. It was so good to see him, and that made my day even better. When I got home from work, Regan had two red velvet cupcakes for me and Chris. Again, calories don't count on your birthday! Right? I quickly got dressed, because Chris had a surprise date for me. He picked me up about six, and he looked so handsome. We got all dressed up, and went to the steakhouse. Again, the calories don't count on your birthday, right? Ha. It was delicious. After that, he surprised me with tickets to see "Stomp" at Bass Performance Hall downtown. It was so entertaining. He did a great job keeping a secret. I received the sweetest cards and gifts in the mail, and I could not have felt more blessed. Thank you to everyone who remembered me on my birthday! Thank You Lord for another birthday and year filled with Your love and kindness. Thank You for my health and another breath. Thank You that Your mercies are new every morning! Thank You for Your many blessings. You are good.

Wash Me!

"Have mercy upon me, O God, according to Your steadfast love; according to the multitude of Your tender mercy and loving kindness blot out my transgressions. Wash me thoroughly (and repeatedly) from my iniquity and guilt and cleanse me and make me wholly pure from my sin. For I am conscious of my transgressions and I acknowledge them; my sin is ever before me. Against You, You only, have I sinned and done what is evil in Your sight, so that You are justified in Your sentence and faultless in Your judgement. Behold, I was brought forth in iniquity; my mother was sinful who conceived me (and I too am sinful). Behold, You desire truth in the inner being; make me therefore to know wisdom in my inmost heart. Purify me with hyssop, and I shall be clean; wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow. Make me to hear joy and gladness and be satisfied; let the bones which You have broken rejoice. Hide Your face from my sins and blot out all my guilt and iniquities. Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right, persevering, and steadfast spirit within me. Cast me not away from Your presence and take not Your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of Your salvation and uphold me with a willing spirit. Then will I teach transgressors Your ways, and sinners shall be converted and return to You..." -Psalm 51

Lord, 

Deliver me. You are the God of my salvation. Open my lips, and my mouth shall flow forth with Your praise. I will sing aloud of Your righteousness. Thank You Lord that You delight in a broken and contrite heart. Thank You for continuing to break me down with sorrow for my sin. I confess the lack of self-control and discipline You desire. I confess my lust for things that are not of You. I confess my need to justify everything I do instead of allowing You to be my Justifier. I confess saying one thing and doing another. I confess my exaggerating or not telling the whole truth. I confess my need to buy things I don't need in order to feel like I am in control. I confess my attitude and laziness. I confess my bitterness and envy. I confess my insecurities and fear about the future. Forgive me for not trusting You. I know who You are. I am so sorry Lord Jesus. Show me Your ways. Guide me in Your truth and teach me. Thank You for never giving up on me. Your grace is enough!

Life!

Where Do I Begin?

Life in Fort Worth has been fast and furious! So much has been happening. Sometimes, I feel overwhelmed to sit down and write about it all. However, I am going to attempt a summary since my last post to present day. Let's see...three of my closest friends have gotten engaged in the last month. Congratulations to Tim and Brittany, Brad and Laura, and Bryan and Chelsey! Chris and I were actually able to be apart of Bryan and Chelsey's engagement night. It was so special for us. I actually introduced Bryan and Chelsey in February of last year. Bryan and I grew up together. We met in Mrs.Dubose's first grade class. He tried to kiss me at the water fountain, and I slapped him. We've been best friends ever since! Bryan and I went to school together from the beginning of elementary until the end of high school. We parted ways for college. I can remember taking pictures with Bryan at my high school graduation and wondering what in the world I was going to do without that boy! Of course, our Mom's were crying and taking pictures. It was bittersweet. Nevertheless, Bryan and I stayed in touch through college. He even came to visit me a couple of times. Every once in awhile we would catch up on the phone. Of course, when we would talk I would always ask if there was anyone special. We always joked about how there was no need for him to date anyone until I found the right one for him. We laughed, and he loved the idea of me picking out his future wife. Hmm...Little did we know what the Lord had in store. Fast forward. I meet Chris. We begin a friendship. Two years later we begin dating, and he introduces me to Chelsey. One night just the three of us went to see the movie "We are Marshall." We had a great time and ended up talking forever in the parking lot after the movie ended. It wasn't long before Chelsey became one of my good friends. The more we talked and the more we got to know one another, the more I liked her. Last December, I was talking to Chelsey about Bryan. I came across some old pictures of us, and I thought....I could see this working. Chelsey wasn't sure at first, but she was open to the idea. I raved about Bryan, but it wasn't hard to do. A month or so later, I called Bryan and told him he better live up to all I claimed that he is. Ha! Poor thing. Well, before I knew it, we had a date on the calendar for them to come to Waco. You see, Chelsey lives in Rockwall, Texas and Bryan lives in Shreveport, Louisiana. So, all of this was kind of a big deal. I was a little nervous. I had never done this before. The weekend went great, and they have been friends and more than that ever since! Naturally, Bryan wanted Chris and me to be apart of the night he proposed. We were thrilled to be there. It was a perfect night filled with so much love and laughter. The two become one on June 27, 2009. God is good. In the midst of everyone getting engaged, I've been searching for an apartment and job, celebrating birthdays of dear friends and family, working hard at the hospital, meeting new friends, and doing my best to stay in touch with my old friends. With Chris working full time at Ruth's Chris Steakhouse as well as going to school and being in a time of transition myself, it has been difficult. However, Chris and I have been able to spend time with our friends we love the most here and there. Just not as much as we would like. We did get to be with Matt and Courtney for dinner and a concert. It was so good to be with them even just for a night. I lived with Court for four years, so she and Matt are family. We ate at Mi Cocina and saw Michael Buble at the Fort Worth Convention Center. It was great fun! I love his music. He is a very talented artist and performer. Ryan gave Regan a surprise birthday party at a great restaurant downtown and bought all of our dinners. We had a blast celebrating with Regan and catching up with the whole crew. A few friends were able to come in for Christopher's birthday, and we had lunch at Joe T. Garcia's! Chris was really surprised. He thought it was going to just be the two of us. After lunch, Chris and I celebrated his birthday by going to see the Impressionists exhibit from Chicago at the Kimbell Art Museum, watching some football, going to church, cake and ice cream with the Redwine family and Dr.Shirley, as well as seeing the movie "Fireproof." What a wonderful movie! There is so much trash these days that I love seeing clean movies with powerful messages. If you haven't seen it, you need too. What else? I have been doing some baby sitting for a couple of families. They are awesome. Their children are absolutely adorable in every way, and bless me so much. My parents have been down to visit a couple of times. In fact, they passed through on my Dad and sister's birthday. By the way, it has been way too long since I have seen my sister. I am missing her more than anyone! I will get to see her for Thanksgiving though! Thank goodness! The last time my parents were here, I made a decision on an apartment. I must have looked at 20+ apartments. Whew! I kept coming back to this particular one that I have chosen, and I am super excited about having a place of my own. It's so cute. Thank You Lord that You are my Home, but for providing a physical roof over my head. I know I am forgetting stuff. Oh! Yes! Chris got into practicum for counseling! Yay! We are so excited. This is a big deal, because not everyone gets in. We are so grateful to God for pouring out His grace on our lives. We are so undeserving. We recognize that every good and perfect gift is from Him. Another awesome thing God did was provide a place for me to work, and it is right across the street from where I am living! I was offered the job a couple of weeks ago and recently accepted. It seems like a great fit, and I start January 5th. My prayer is that I will continue to work with all of my heart for the Lord and not for men. Up until this point, I have been working for free finishing up my internship for my last semester of graduate school. My parents have so graciously and generously supported me through my schooling, and now the Lord has provided a way for me to support myself. There's so much to do in the coming days, especially with trying to move, graduating, holidays, and starting a new job. Wow! Maybe I should just stop here for now. I have so many pictures I could post, but it would take forever. For now, I will just post these two of Bryan and Chelsey on their engagement night and me and Chris on the balcony of my apartment I am living in now. I really needed to do this tonight. Even though I have a million other things I could and should be doing, it feels so good to sit down and write and share...Thank You Lord for the ability to do so!

Rise & Shine! Give God The Glory!

I love the morning when all is still and quiet. Sometimes, I just want to get back in my bed for a few more minutes. However, it is so worth it to get up! My prayer is that from the time my feet hit the floor in the morning until my head hits the pillow at night that I would bring Him glory. 

"To man belong the plans of the heart, but from the Lord comes the reply of the tongue. All a man's ways seem innocent to him, but motives are weighed by the Lord. Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed...In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps...How much better to get wisdom than gold, to choose understanding rather than silver....Pride goes before destruction, a haughty spirit before a fall....Whoever gives heed to instruction prospers, and blessed is he who trusts in the Lord." (Proverbs 16)

Lord Jesus, 

    I am trying not to make too many plans, but there are some plans in my heart. I am waiting for Your reply. Weigh my motives. I commit to you all my plans of a career, a place to live, a marriage, a family, etc. Plant me where You want me that I may be on display for the glory of Your splendor. I am so thankful that You determine my steps. Lord, I ask for wisdom. I need Your wisdom more than I need a great paycheck or anything else in this world. By Your Spirit, help me to choose understanding. I know that pride goes before destruction. If there is any haughty spirit within me, get it out! I receive Your instruction and the instruction of the authority You have placed over me. Thank You for Your promise that he who trusts in You will be blessed. I love you Jesus. You are so good. 

No Time To Catch Up!

Everything that I haven't written a post about, but I want too...

1. Regan's Birthday!

2. Christopher's Birthday!

3. Tim proposing to Brittany!

4. Dad and Meredith's Birthday!

5. My parents coming in town!

6. Bryan proposing to Chelsey!

7. Seeing Matt and Courtney!

8. Going to the Michael Buble concert!

9. The new movie "Fireproof!"

10. What God is doing!

Well, we are eleven days into October and things are busy! Hopefully, I will get to write at least a little something about all that is above. However, I am currently headed out the door! Hope to write soon.

We Fall Down!

"We fall down

We lay our crown

At the feet of Jesus

The greatness of Your mercy and love

At the feet of Jesus

We cry Holy, Holy, Holy

We cry Holy, Holy, Holy

We cry Holy, Holy, Holy

Is the Lamb"

"But You are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people belonging to God, that you may declare the praises of Him who called you out of darkness into His wonderful light. Once you were not a people, but now you are the people of God; once you had not received mercy, but now you have received mercy..." 1 Peter 2:9-10

Pursuit!

"WE DON'T ACHIEVE VICTORY ONCE, THEN NEVER HAVE TO BOTHER WITH IT AGAIN. DESIRING TO BE GODLY IS THE WORK OF A LIFETIME." -BETH MOORE

LORD JESUS, HELP ME TO FLEE THE THINGS THAT ARE NOT OF YOU. YOU ARE THE WAY, THE TRUTH, AND THE LIFE. HELP ME TO PURSUE RIGHTEOUSNESS, FAITH, LOVE, AND PEACE. MAY MY AIM BE FOR ALL THAT IS VIRTUOUS AND GOOD, RIGHT LIVING, CONFORMING TO YOUR WILL IN THOUGHT, WORD, AND DEED. SHUT MY MIND AND MY HEART TO ALL OTHER THINGS THAT ARE NOT OF YOU. OH JESUS, HELP ME TO FIGHT THE GOOD FIGHT, HOLDING ON TO FAITH AND A GOOD CONSCIENCE. MAY I NOT BE ONE WHO SHIPWRECKS THEIR FAITH. 

THE WORD PURSUE IS A VERB. TO PURSUE MEANS TO CONTINUE, TO CARRY ON, TO FOLLOW, TO GO ON WITH ONE'S COURSE OR JOURNEY. PURSUIT IS THE ACT OF PURSUING. IT IS AN EFFORT TO SECURE OR ATTAIN. IT IS A QUEST. IT IS ANY OCCUPATION, PASTIME, OR THE LIKE, IN WHICH A PERSON IS ENGAGED REGULARLY. IT IS CHASING. IT IS SEEKING A GOAL. LATELY, I HAVE REALLY BEEN THINKING ABOUT THIS CONCEPT IN MY LIFE. OF COURSE, THE FIRST THING THAT COMES TO MY MIND IS CHRIST. HE IS THE LOVER OF MY SOUL. I FAIL HIM TIME AND TIME AGAIN, BUT STILL HE WOOS ME AND PURSUES ME. I CAN RUN ALL DAY LONG, BUT STILL HE REACHES FOR ME. STILL, HE CHOOSES ME EACH AND EVERY DAY. HE BLOCKS MY WAY AND TURNS ME BACK AROUND. TRULY, IT IS HIS KINDNESS THAT LEADS ME TO REPENTANCE. IT'S HIS PURSUIT WITHOUT BEING PUSHY THAT PULLS ME TO HIM. I THINK ABOUT THAT WHICH I HAVE PURSUED AND CONTINUE TO PURSUE. I THINK ABOUT THE ETERNAL, AND I THINK ABOUT THE TEMPORARY. I THINK ABOUT WHAT IS WORTH MY LIFE. TO PURSUE SOMETHING OR SOMEONE, IT MUST BE OF VALUE. IT MUST BE WORTH PURSUING. MY FIRST LOVE, ALTHOUGH NOT ALWAYS OBVIOUS, IS CHRIST. I AM WORKING ON MY PURSUIT OF HIM. AT TIMES, I FIND MYSELF CHOOSING OTHER THINGS. THEN, I FEEL THIS TUG IN MY HEART. I FEEL HIS PURSUIT OF ME. SUDDENLY, I AM REMINDED THAT WHATEVER I AM CHOOSING AT THAT MOMENT IS FLEETING. I DESIRE TO BE LIKE PAUL WHEN HE SAYS, "WHAT IS MORE, I CONSIDER EVERYTHING A LOSS COMPARED TO THE SURPASSING GREATNESS OF KNOWING CHRIST JESUS MY LORD, FOR WHOSE SAKE I HAVE LOST ALL THINGS." I LOVE THE OLD WORSHIP SONG THAT SAYS, "KNOWING YOU, JESUS, KNOWING YOU, THERE IS NO GREATER THING. YOU'RE MY ALL, YOU'RE THE BEST, YOU'RE MY JOY, MY RIGHTEOUSNESS, AND I LOVE YOU LORD." I LONG TO POSSESS A FAITH THAT I KNOW I COULD NEVER EARN. IT'S MOST DEFINITELY A JOURNEY, BUT I AM LEARNING. EVEN IN THE MIDST OF FAILURE AND SET BACKS, I AM CONTINUING ON IN MY JOURNEY WITH JESUS. SOMETIMES, I GET DISCOURAGED. SOMETIMES, I FEEL AS THOUGH I SHOULD BE IN A DIFFERENT PLACE, FRUSTRATED WITH MY MATURITY OR LACK THEREOF. YET, I AM COMFORTED WHEN I REMEMBER THAT MY GOD IS WITH ME, ALWAYS PURSUING ME. HE IS MIGHTY TO SAVE. HE CONTINUALLY TAKES GREAT DELIGHT IN ME. HE QUIETS ME WITH HIS LOVE. HE REJOICES OVER ME WITH SINGING. THERE IS NOT ONE THAT KNOWS NOR DEMONSTRATES WHAT IT MEANS TO PURSUE BETTER THAN CHRIST HIMSELF. EVERY HEART DESIRES TO BE PURSUED. SINCE THE LORD BROUGHT CHRISTOPHER IN MY LIFE, I HAVE SEEN MORE OF CHRIST'S HEART FOR ME THAN EVER BEFORE. HIS CHARACTER AND RELENTLESS LOVE HAS OVERTAKEN MY SOUL. I AM OVERWHELMED. THANK YOU LORD FOR THE PRECIOUS WAYS YOU CHOOSE TO LOVE YOUR CHILDREN. THANK YOU FOR ALLOWING CHRIS AND I TO CONTINUE TO CHOOSE YOU FIRST AND ONE ANOTHER SECOND. IT KEEPS ME PURSUING YOU AS YOU PURSUE ME. MAY IT ALWAYS BE THIS WAY. UNTO YOU BE ALL THE GLORY. 

I Have Nothing Without You!

Well, Mom and Dad keep asking me to post pictures. However, my computer is not wanting to let me post them at the moment. I can't say I have pictures of anything too exciting, but I do have a few cute ones that I could post whenever it chooses to let me do so. Agh! Technology. I have a love/hate relationship with it. Today was a great day. God continues to be so good to me. I had a few rough days last week, but He pulled me through. A friend of mine sent me a text message in the middle of a hard day that said, "Not even a sparrow worth only half a penny can fall to the ground without your Father knowing it. And the very hairs on your head are all numbered. So don't be afraid; you are more valuable to Him than a whole flock of sparrows" (Matthew 10:29-31). It's exactly what I needed in that moment. I love how He uses people in our lives to speak His truth so clearly. Here are a few Scriptures on truth that I have been thinking about...

"Show me Your ways, O Lord, teach me Your paths; guide me in Your truth and teach me, for You are God my Savior, and my hope is in You all day long." Psalm 25:4-5

"Do not withhold Your mercy from me, O Lord; may Your love and Your truth always protect me." Psalm 40:11

"Send forth Your light and Your truth, let them guide me; let them bring me to Your holy mountain, to the place where You dwell." Psalm 43:3

"Surely You desire truth in the inner parts; You teach me wisdom in the inmost place." 

Psalm 51:6

"Teach me Your way, O Lord, and I will walk in Your truth; give me an undivided heart, that I may fear Your name. I will praise You, O Lord my God, with all my heart; I will glorify Your name forever. For great is Your love toward me; You have delivered me from the depths of the grave." Psalm 86:11-13

"The Lord is near to all who call on Him, to all who call on Him in truth." 

Psalm 145:18

"I, the Lord, speak the truth; I declare what is right." 

Isaiah 45:19

Truly, You are good to all. You have compassion on all that You have made. Thank You for always being slow to anger and rich in love. I will exalt You my God. You are most worthy of my praise! No one can fathom Your greatness. Thank You that You are near to all who call on You, to all who call on You in truth. Thank You for the places You have led me so far. Each place has expressed Your heart for me. I am comforted when I meditate on Your promises, for You are faithful. Thank You for always going before me and preparing a place for me. I am so excited to be where You have me. You are home. Thank You for Wedgwood Baptist Church. Thank You for the opportunity to be an intern at Baylor All Saints Hospital. Thank You for providing a roof over my head and family within the walls. Thank You for each friendship You have led me to and the relationship You have so perfectly created for me. My first calling is to be an Ambassador for You. I know that, apart from You, I can do nothing! Thank You for that! Keep me forever abiding in You. It's going to be worth it all! 

"In humble adoration, I kneel before Your throne

In brokenness, I seek Your face alone

Above You, there's no other who's able to restore my soul

Come and make me whole...

Breathe on me, power of God

Come in and change me

Change me, Lord

You are all that I need

Holy Spirit, Breathe on me"

- "Breathe on Me" Lyrics