Feels Like Chaos!

"It's time for healing

Time to move on

It's time to fix what's been broken too long

Time to make right what has been wrong

It's time to find my way to where I belong

There's a wave that's crashing over me

And all I can do is surrender

Whatever You're doing inside of me

It feels like chaos, but somehow there's peace

It's hard to surrender to what I can't see

But I'm giving into something heavenly

Time for a milestone

Time to begin again 

Re-evaluate who I really am

Am I doing everything to follow Your will

Or just climbing aimlessly over these hills

So, show me what it is You want from me

I give everything

I surrender to whatever You're doing inside of me

It feels like chaos, but somehow there's peace

Though it's hard to surrender to what I can't see

I'm giving into something heavenly

Time to face up

Clean this old house

Time to breathe in and let everything out

That I've wanted to say for so many years

Time to release all my held back tears

Whatever You're doing inside of me

It feels like chaos, but I believe

You're up to something bigger than me

Larger than life 

Something heavenly

Whatever You're doing inside of me

It feels like chaos, but now I can see

This is something bigger than me

Larger than life

Something heavenly"

-Sanctus Real

Lord Jesus,

      I know how I can stray, and how fast my heart can change. I pray that You would empty me of my selfishness and pride. I long to be filled with You. Rid me of every vain ambition. Everything is a lesser thing compared to You! You say that if I call out to You, You will answer me. Thank You that You are always there. Thank You that You can give me more than my heart could ever want. Thank You that You are Love. I'm calling out to You. You know every desire of my heart. You know what I need more than I do. I am listening. I am running into Your arms. Hold me forever. Hold me through this storm. I confess that I've run from You in the last few months. I've been wrong. I don't know what's best for me. I need a revelation. Apart from You, I can do nothing. Apart from You, I have nothing. I need You. Forgive me Lord Jesus where I have failed You. Forgive me for being caught up in myself. Take it all, because I can't take it any longer. Once again, I surrender all.